Today I managed to wash my hair, go to clinic and get a load of washing on. It may not be a day worthy of awards but with a very unsettled four month old these were wins for me.
Following on from my post yesterday, the first thing I want to say is a massive thank you to all the friends and family who have reached out to offer me help. I had so many offers of help with household chores, washing and baby sitting from family and friends.
What surprised me the most was the number of people that messaged me to thank me for sharing my struggle. It’s nice to know that we are not alone especially in our low patches. I hope sharing my experience continues to help.
I’m not going to pretend that I am completely better today but that’s ok. I’ll start my day fresh again tomorrow and hope for more good moments to be grateful for.
I really cannot thank you all enough for the offers of support. I may never take you up on them but that does not devalue the importance of the offer. As I may have mentioned to some of you, I likely do not need the practical help at the moment but I do need to adjust the expectations I’ve set for myself.
I definitely get satisfaction from having a clean and organised home, it makes me feel like I have some control over my life. It’s understandable with everything I have going on that I would want to be on top of everything however, even without the CF to work through it’s an unrealistic goal for me.
I am grateful today for clean hair, a load of washing on, Archer putting on weight, cuddles from Finn and getting through half a movie with Nick. I’m looking forward to what tomorrow may bring.
I’d love to hear some of the things that you are grateful for.
It’s been a long while since I posted on my blog. A lot has happened since my last post. We’ve moved house, welcomed a new baby, have been managing Archer’s diagnosis, and navigating what it is to be a family of four.
For all of us 2020 was a difficult year. My family is right there with everyone still processing the highs and the lows. I’ve been trying to decide if my blog should continue, I’m using this post to test the benefits writing things out brings me.
Archer is now four months old. That’s four months of being a family of four and spending my time with this wonderful little man. It’s also four months of less time for Finn and Nick as well as myself. It’s nearly 4 months of processing Archer’s diagnosis and navigating the CF journey.
I’ve been feeling overwhelmed for a little while now and I felt some strong emotions bubbling. This week has been quite a low point for me. Although I have support in abundance I have been fairly hard on myself.
I know all new mums experience difficulties adjusting to this new role. I just want you to know that I am here with you. I wouldn’t say that today is my lowest point but I’m not at my best and that’s okay. We are allowed to have bad days, even weeks. We are after all only human.
I feel the way I have written this post is a good reflection of my mood. I’m feeling low and down about the challenges I’m faced with and my ability to cope with them but I’m working hard to be kinder to myself and also be optimistic for the future.
What’s important to me today is spending time with Archer, performing his treatments and resting myself. The toys, dishes and washing will all still be there tomorrow. Maybe I’ll get to them then. In the meantime, I’m going to try to be grateful for one small thing today.
Reach out if you need help.
Photos of myself and home right now to prove I don’t have it together all the time.