Mental Health

Today I am struggling

It’s been a long while since I posted on my blog. A lot has happened since my last post. We’ve moved house, welcomed a new baby, have been managing Archer’s diagnosis, and navigating what it is to be a family of four.

For all of us 2020 was a difficult year. My family is right there with everyone still processing the highs and the lows. I’ve been trying to decide if my blog should continue, I’m using this post to test the benefits writing things out brings me.

Archer is now four months old. That’s four months of being a family of four and spending my time with this wonderful little man. It’s also four months of less time for Finn and Nick as well as myself. It’s nearly 4 months of processing Archer’s diagnosis and navigating the CF journey.

I’ve been feeling overwhelmed for a little while now and I felt some strong emotions bubbling. This week has been quite a low point for me. Although I have support in abundance I have been fairly hard on myself.

I know all new mums experience difficulties adjusting to this new role. I just want you to know that I am here with you. I wouldn’t say that today is my lowest point but I’m not at my best and that’s okay. We are allowed to have bad days, even weeks. We are after all only human.

I feel the way I have written this post is a good reflection of my mood. I’m feeling low and down about the challenges I’m faced with and my ability to cope with them but I’m working hard to be kinder to myself and also be optimistic for the future.

What’s important to me today is spending time with Archer, performing his treatments and resting myself. The toys, dishes and washing will all still be there tomorrow. Maybe I’ll get to them then. In the meantime, I’m going to try to be grateful for one small thing today.

Reach out if you need help.

Photos of myself and home right now to prove I don’t have it together all the time.

No makeup or filter
Toys everywhere
Dishes for days
Always washing to do

2 thoughts on “Today I am struggling

  1. I feel so sad reading this. So beautifully written, you have a talent for words. I just wish we could do more than we are. You are amazing and dad and I are both in awe of how you do what you do. You are both very inspiring with how you handled Archers CF diagnosis. I know uts ok for everyone to say he will be fine. We KNOW Archer will be fine but we are not dealing with it 24 hours a day. Your two boys are the loves of our life, and if we can do more let us. We love your family and we love you. 🥰

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  2. You don’t have to be superwoman Kim, the washing will wait , so will everything , reach out to your amazing mother in law and father in law as well as your friends and your parents for help, no one would be judging you after all two children are harder than 1, and no one would care if they visited and the dishes are not done , your children are your main priority
    Just remember tomorrow’s a new day

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